Real World Weight Loss

Ouch.

I feel off the wagon yesterday. Far off the wagon, bumping along down the road as I went headfirst.

Bump.

Bump.

Right into the yummy brownies. Into the heavenly M&Ms. Into the Cheese Its (ugh. They were nasty.)

Why? Because I was tired. And probably because I took the happiness of eating away and did not replace it with something that would make me equally as happy.

All work and no play = binge. Big time.

I was feeling good and strong for awhile there as you read in previous posts. And then – then – then the demon inside me got out of its box and ate everything in sight. Hmmm. I was tired, angry and resentful at the world. The binge felt so good and freeing (at the time). I felt happy and full and warm and toasty (at the time). But today, after the high was over, I felt terrible. My face was all puffy and I was bloated and fatigued….what I imagine a hangover would feel like. So I did what any hangover survivor would do – drank lots of water and ate lighter.

Getting Back on the Horse

This morning I had a decision to make: I could be angry at myself and continue to eat or I could get right back on the horse and pretend it never happened.

In the past I used to beat myself up over slips like this. I would think, “An entire week’s worth of effort -wasted. I might as well continue to eat. Loser, loser, loser.”

I don’t do that anymore. This morning I got right back on track. Yes, physically I feel terrible and 10 pounds heavier (which of course I am not). I could literally feel my belly flapping while I was Spinning. Flap, flap, flap. All from one little binge. In reality, if it’s flapping it is from more than one binge. It’s from the 20 pound of damage I did to myself over the last two years. Flapping doesn’t materialize overnight. But it’s amazing what your mind can trick you into believing. I feel much fatter today than I did two days ago. That’s scary.

I worked my abdominals this morning for about 20 minutes and then taught my Spinning class tonight. I am not feeling well for a myriad of reasons, one of them being the binge and the other that I am probably fighting off a virus of sorts. I will head to bed early and refocus on my target.

Onward and forward.

Until tomorrow.

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TODAY’S STATS

7 hours of sleep.

20 minute core workout in morning, teach Spinning in evening.

For food?

• Orange – breakfast.
• Whole wheat pasta with tomatoes and low fat cottage cheese – lunch.
• Spinach and zucchini – lunch.
• Slice of chocolate cake (it was for my ex-brother-in-law’s birthday) – snack.
• Apple – snack.
• Two spoon fulls of amino acids – after Spinning.
• Egg Beaters with low fat cheese and zucchini – dinner.

>Continue reading to Day 16-18: Don’t Give Up