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Whew!
When your day is very busy it’s hard to stick with your goals. Deadlines, sick kids, stress and life in general can take a toll on your most well-laid plans.
Today I was very busy with both children home from school. I needed to sub out my Spinnning class, much to my dismay and sadness. I tried to stay on top of my eating but remembered only one fruit and a wilted spinach salad. I was too busy to even crave carbs.
I did a briefer-than-brief upper body workout today followed by 10 minutes of punching a boxing bag. That was all I could muster before sitting back down at my desk.
Why bother with so little, you ask?
Because anything is better than nothing. Seriously. 15-20 minutes of intense, concentrated work can trump an hour-long session if you do it right. More than anything, though, any kind of exercise is good for you mentally.
Continue reading ‘Losing Weight – Day 11: Fitting It In’
I’ve never tasted Miracle Whip until today.
My daughter asked me to buy it on our last shopping trip, and as I was making her a sandwich I wiped the knife with my finger and had a taste. Boy, did I want some. This was Miracle Whip Light mind you, so it only had 1.5 grams of fat per serving. I had no reason to eat it, unless I slathered it on something yummy and carb-y, so I didn’t even bother. I bet it would have tasted wonderful on French bread topped with Provolone.
Sweet, Salt or…Carbs?
I think it’s the saltiness that drew me to the Miracle Whip. I’ve been thinking about salt all day. I had three potato chips in the car and I’ve been fantasizing about popcorn. I even ate some dill pickles (I learned my lesson with those higher calorie sweet pickles. Read the pickle incident here.). Salt, sweet, salt, sweet – I crave both and I am so confused.
I am keeping my eye on the final prize (fitting into my jeans that are now about 3″ from closing – 3″ might as well be 3′ as far as those pants go. It’s not even muffin top – it’s like a Play-Doh mushroom).
My eating is slipping a little bit again. Not so much in terms of binging (I am no longer polishing off an entire tray of cookies followed by a pint of ice cream), but overall I am eating more and more carbs, more and more frequently. This definitely has something to do with my monthly cycle.
The trick is, how do I pull back without becoming tired? How do I eat more fruit and veggies, for example, when what I really crave are breads? I need a certain amount of carbs to survive my Spinning schedule. I live in fear of running out of energy when I teach. It’s one thing to peter out on the bike when you are the student – it’s a whole other thing to peter out when you are leading an entire class. I know the sugars stored in my muscles will get me through most anything, which is why I start every day with oatmeal – and chocolate chips.
Overall, I am a big believer in eating carbs. I lost more than 80 pounds in the past consuming them. The trick is to eat more of the good kind, less of the refined.
Continue reading ‘Losing Weight – Day 10: Craving Carbs’
When well-laid out plans go awry, you just hang on to the seat of your cycling shorts and try for the best. This is a short post by my wordy standards.
A day that started with a sick child who was up half the night (and mommy with her), a Spinning class, and deadlines for design clients, ended with an evening business event, homework fights, dinner and then – collapse and cry. Even a superwoman has her limits.
It took all I had today not to binge. I ate a bit too much, but overall it’s not a deal breaker. I was proud of myself for that. Had a fairly big bowl of low fat yogurt after dinner with some light whipping cream on top and felt better after. Then I made an executive decision: No more work tonight. Get the kids ready for bed and hit the sack. Clients can wait. I will start fresh tomorrow.
Sometimes we need to recognize our limits…and respect them. I could have consoled myself with massive overeating like I have been doing the last couple of years. Sometimes the weight on my shoulders can momentarily be lightened by heavenly brownies. It may be only a moment, but it’s a good moment. Instead, today I focused on getting through the day hour-by-hour, project-by-project. A few extra carbs here and there kept me going. Compromise is what keeps me sane.
Today’s advice: Exhaustion. Don’t let yourself go there.
Continue reading ‘Losing Weight – Day 9: Exhaustion’
My day of rest yesterday was much needed because this week I have a challenging first few days: Teaching two Spinning classes today and one tomorrow morning. That’s three hard Spinning classes in 24 hours. For me, this is difficult because I give 100% in each class, and there’s not much time to recharge in between. I need a lot of recharging. I usually don’t teach “2-in-a-day” classes because it is pointless to exercise that much, and if I do that too often I stop enjoying it. Right now I enjoy teaching.
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nother instructor needed a sub and I was glad to help out. She has a good crowd and I know I can handle it – I’ve done many “2-in-a-days” in the past. Since I also know that this is a week where I normally crave a lot of carbs (wore my pink “PMS” cycling socks this morning), the extra class helps me justify my unnecessary “carb-loading” and helps me stay focused on losing weight. Somehow my food willpower seems stronger when I exercise. I think the endorphins from exercise take the place of food when I need a little stress relief.
So far, so good. I was able to put in a respectable performance in both classes today, though my thighs feel like they weigh 400 pounds each. I almost called out for a sub for tomorrow, but knew I would regret it. I feel pretty strong right now, and I will credit this to my attempt at eating better over the past week. I may not have lost anything measurable, but I feel healthier overall.
It’s hard for me to grasp the concept of crap food in = tired, cranky instructor, and quality food in = happy, energetic instructor, but I am working on that, too. I think Cheetos should be the food of champions, but apparently they are not.
Continue reading ‘Losing Weight – Day 8: Anticipate’
One day a week I take a complete break from exercise. No Spinning, no strength training, not even any stretching. It’s one day for my body to go, “Ahhhhh,” and just kick back. Usually this day is Sunday.
A few years back, when I was at my fittest, things were different. I used to get up early and ride my bike on Sundays. In the summer my friends and I would meet at 6 a.m. before it got warm (and while the kids were sleeping) and take long, strenuous rides. We’d push mile after mile, hill after hill, challenge after challenge, returning home exhausted and sweaty as our families began to stir. In the winter we’d head out with long cycling tights, gloves and windbreakers, cold and miserable the whole way.
An early, very chilly morning (an Easter Sunday in fact) I got stuck returning down the side of a mountain that I’d ridden up. It was raining, sleeting and we had ice in our hair. No one else was on the road, we had no cell phone reception, and my friend and I had to pull off to the side, shivering uncontrollably, wondering if we’d ever make it down alive. Another Sunday morning I was following a group of experienced cyclists through some canyons. They were far ahead of me, out of sight, and I was trying to catch up. I put everything I had into each pedal stroke, and barreled over the crest, missing my turn and almost toppling off the cliff. Those were my Sundays.
One day, while getting ready to head out on a cold early-morning Sunday ride by myself, I discovered I had a flat tire. I looked at the tire. Pondered. Then I removed my cycling gear, headed back upstairs and jumped into my warm, toasty bed. I haven’t gotten up early to ride on a Sunday since.
Continue reading ‘Losing Weight – Day 7: Rest’
Cloudy Weather Snack-a-Thon
Cloudy days and cold weather always inspire me to eat. I think it’s a “hibernation” thing. Today, I just wanted to eat, snuggle under the covers and sleep all day.
To counteract doing something detrimental to my progress I made sure that I ate every two hours or so – tricking myself into thinking I was snacking. After breakfast and teaching a Spinning class, I had a small sugar-free* Vanilla Latte with soy milk, then an hour later ordered a warm and filling Buddha’s Feast with tofu from Pick Up Stix. It’s hard to tell from the nutritional information on their web site what it actually was that I was eating. I wanted the Wok Smart entrée (under 500 calories), but received small containers of brown rice and Buddha’s Feast instead. I had to just work with that.
I ate only 1/3 of the meal at lunch because I wasn’t very hungry (the latte had filled me up). Throughout the day, I snacked on the remainder of the food – in about 1/3 increments. It helped me feel constantly full, feel like I was eating a lot – fulfilling my desire to snack – and still kept me within a reasonable daily calorie count. It gave me a nice serving of vegetables and fiber, too.
It’s good sometimes to “fake yourself out.” The constant small eating helped me feel like I was eating a lot – just what the dreary day ordered.
Continue reading ‘Losing Weight: Day 6 – Snacking’
The Old Me Would Have Screamed
Before I had my massive weight loss a few years back, if I had tried to lose weight and gained a pound it would have been the end of the world. I would eat every carb in sight, punishing myself for what I would perceive as something I had done wrong.
I weighed myself today, and I did not scream even though I weigh one pound more than when I started this project five days ago. Last time I lost between 1/4 and 1/2 pound per day. Yes, I had a lot of weight to lose back then and yes, I was younger. But still…
Did I get discouraged?
No. I had a brief moment where I thought, “Oh crap. All that work for nothing. What the…?” Because I know that my weight fluctuates depending on how much salt I’ve eaten, where I am in my cycle, how much sleep I’ve gotten, and how much water I’ve ingested, I did not throw in the towel at this piece of bad news. I’m really not expecting to see any change in my weight for about two more weeks. That may be hard to swallow for some, considering all the “miraculous” results we see on television and read about in magazines, but it’s the reality. There are many, many factors to consider when it comes to actual weight loss.
Just because I haven’t lost anything measurable on a scale doesn’t mean I’m not losing fat. Actual weight loss hinges on too many variables to hang our hats on one particular element. Fat loss, rather than weight loss, is something you can feel. Fat loss can be judged in terms of looks and clothing fit. Sometimes we need to say, “To hell with the scale!” and continue on. Could I have given up? Yes. But…
I look at it this way: I can either lose, maintain or gain weight. The first two are OK. The third is not. That’s how I ended up here.
Continue reading ‘Losing Weight – Day 5: 1 Pound Up’
Read Day 1 – The Struggle
Read Day 2 – M&Ms
Read Day 3 – Eating at 2 a.m.
Right about now – days four through seven or so – your body is getting a clue as to what’s going on. You are eating less and moving more. In nature, that means one thing: The famine is coming!
Your body holds onto fat for one reason – to get you through periods of starvation. What it doesn’t realize is that there really is no famine..that there is plenty of food to go around (at least in our nation of excess). All it cares about is that you are depleting your stores of the very thing it counts on to keep you alive: Fat. And now it’s fighting back.
Today I am starving. Not literally starving, but the kind of starving where my body is sabotaging me. It’s sending signals to my brain to trick me into eating. “She’s tired.” “She’s hungry.” “She needs cookies.” It’s one of those collaborations that are deadly to our weight loss efforts. Right now it would be soooo easy to grab that spoon again and dip into the frozen yogurt. It would be so easy to eat half a bag of Oreos (and I don’t even like Oreos). It would be so easy to bake some warm, yummy cornbread and slather it with butter, feeling my tension melt away and quiet the “starving” voices in my head.
This is where I need to stay focused and ask myself. “Am I going to let my body win? Am I going to let my body’s quest to keep the fat ruin my efforts?” No I will not.
And do you know why I won’t give in? Because I have done this before.
I lost 82 pounds in 2003/2004. I know the drill. I know the feelings. I know the pitfalls. And I also know that I can give in today, but if I start again tomorrow, in 4-5 days I’ll be faced with the same situation: wanting to break down and eat a bunch of things that are physically not good for me (but mentally – mmm yes.) Just because my body said so.
My theory is this: Take pain now or take it later. I’ll take it now. It won’t be any easier tomorrow.
Continue reading ‘Losing Weight – Day 4: Famine’
March 3
Read Day 1 – The Struggle
Read Day 2 – M&Ms
I guess I did not eat enough yesterday since I found myself awake at 2 a.m., searching for food. I settled for half of a protein bar, then went back to sleep. I usually don’t wake up to eat, but obviously my body was looking for calories. I’m just lucky I did not have any Cheetos around. 
I did make an effort to sleep last night, and slept in until 8:30 a.m. Felt a bit sluggish and tired this morning since I am not used to sleeping, but worked awhile, then exercised for 30 minutes. I started training with kettlebells again. I hate kettlebells. I really do. I love them, but I also despise them. Love/hate.
Kettlebells are the hardest thing I know, so I went easy on myself and did only two sets of double arm swings (x25), one set of single arm swings (x15 total), cursing out every number – 10 – f*!@ – 11 – sh*t – 12 – f!%@. To add insult to injury, I did one set of deep kettlebells squats.
So why do I work with kettlebells if I dislike them? Because they rock. And I’m a glutton for punishment.
Continue reading ‘Losing Weight – Day 3: Eating at 2 a.m.’
March 2, 2010
If you read yesterday’s post you would have noted that I was full of vim and vigor and ready to lose weight. Today…today I am tired. And wanting this baggie full of M&Ms sitting in my drawer.
I stayed up too late again last night and am feeling it today. When we are tired, we often turn to sugar to “perk us up.” Yes, we know it’s a temporary perk but everything in life is temporary, is it not? And though it won’t solve anything in the long run, in the short run that sugar rush feels just so fabulous.
Shall I eat those M&Ms?
Continue reading ‘Losing Weight – Day 2: M&Ms’
